Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Writer's Digest Prompt: Last Love


Prompt of the Day from WritersDigest.com


You call an old flame from high school whom you still have feelings for and ask to meet up. The flame says, “Sure, how about noon at the pub by your house.” While waiting at the pub, your flame walks in—wearing a wedding dress (or tuxedo). The flame looks at you and says, “I’m supposed to be getting married today, but …” What happens? Write this scene.




Last Love

I sat there. Two vodka and tonics later, he walked in…wearing a tuxedo. I felt my eyebrows furrow with confusion. He greeted me first with his eyes then approached me. I could feel my body temperature increasing with nerves. We hugged.
         “I’m feeling a tad underdressed,” I clenched my skirt and laughed.
         “I’m supposed to be getting married today, but,” he scratched his head.
         “But what?”
         “But,” his eyes began to water. We both sat down.
         “I caught her with the priest.”
         “What? Priests aren’t allowed to do that.”
         He laughed at me.
         “Only you can manage to make me laugh during a time like this.”
         I smiled and laughed along.
         “Let me get you a drink,” I offered. “Can we have two whiskey sours?”
         The bartender handed us our drinks a moment later. We clinked our glasses together and drank.
         “To be honest, I wasn’t going to come today,” he admitted.
         “Why?”
         “Come on, Aly. Let’s be real with each other. Some people aren’t capable of being just friends.”
         I looked down at my drink, not sure of how to respond.
         “I still love you,” he said.
         I looked up, now really at a loss for words.
         “I still love you too, Mikey.”     
         “Why did you want to see me today?”
         I looked at him. I looked at the ceiling. I looked at Ed, the bartender. I looked at him again. I chugged my drink, until there wasn’t a drop left.
         “Do you remember that night you and I went to Misha Harrington’s seventeenth birthday party? We got super drunk and woke up the next day in her parents bed.”
         Mikey laughed with a look of sadness as if he was recalling it all.
         “Yes. How could I forget?”
         “Do you remember what you said to me when you woke up?”
         He looked at me. He looked up at the ceiling. He looked at Ed, the bartender. He looked at me again. He chugged his drink, until there wasn’t a drop left.
         “You remember,” I said as he searched for more distractions.
         “Yeah.”
         “Say it.”
         “Say what?”
         “What you said to me that morning.”
         His tongue traced his lips full circle. He looked down and cleared his throat.
         “Can I have another whiskey sour?” he asked Ed.
         “Say it.”
         “Alright,” he cleared his throat again. “I said I hoped that one day I would be able to wake up to you every morning until we were old and senile.”
         “Yeah. What else?”
         He gave me a look. I shot him one back. Ed handed him his drink. He chugged it down before proceeding.
         “And I’m not talking out of a drunk teenage guy’s mouth. I love you Aly Lou.”
         I smiled with satisfaction.
         “What is this all about? What is the point of all this?” he asked sounding somewhat aggravated.
         I closed the distance between us.
         “I still want to grow old and senile with you.”
         I kissed him before he could answer. When I pulled back his eyes were still closed. He looked confused. Scared. Vulnerable. His eyes opened.
         “And for the record, I would never leave you for a priest.”
         He laughed and shook his head.
         “It’s just not that easy, Aly.”
         “If it was easy, it wouldn’t be worth it.”
         His phone interrupted the moment.
         “I’m sorry, hold on.”
         He walked away to answer. He shook his head a few times. He talked with his hands like he did when we were sixteen. He tilted his head and quietly yelled into the phone then hung up. He walked back over to me.
         “Who was that?” I asked.
         “Molly.”
         “Who’s Molly?”
         He just looked down at his phone.
         “Oh. The cheater.”
         “She’s not that bad, Aly. It’s just- she’s very insecure. Her father was an alcoholic and-”
         “Of course.”
         “Sarcasm hasn’t changed either.”
         “Here we go again.”
         “This is why we could never be together.”
         “Then why did you come?”
         I took another sip of my drink.
         “What does it matter? I’m here.”
         “It matters a lot. Did you come because you wanted to? Or because your bride-to-be left you for chronic masturbating hypocrite?”
         He looked into my eyes.
         “Answer the question.”
         “I came because you were always the person I went to when something was wrong.”
         “So I’m your shrink.”
         “No-”
         “Then what am I?”
         “My first love.”
         I nodded my head, understanding now.
         “But not your last.”
         He took in a deep breath and mumbled an unfortunate, “No.”
         “Take a shot with me, Mikey,” I looked at him. Through him.
         “I don’t now-”
         “Like old times.”
         Ed handed us two shots.
         I chugged mine while Mikey observed me.
         “What?”
         “I have to go, Aly.”
         He stood up and left. I drank his shot. I looked at Ed. He shrugged at me. I was just his first love. But never his last. He was my first kiss. My first slow dance. My first bring-home-to-dad kind of date. My first drunk adventure. My first love. My first breakup. And he was my last drink.
        
        

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Trying out some poetry :)


"Their Separate Ways" © December 2013

They went their separate ways,
Of which was only supposed to be temporary.
Learning of the women’s anatomy is how he spent his days,
While she spent hers in the library.
He thought that he knew what life was all about,
He thought that he had figured it all out.

When winter returned
And they were both to meet once again,
His changed attitude had her concerned.
Things were officially put to an end.
He had chosen one of the many bruised apples that had already fallen to the ground,
Too cocky and too scared that he would fall if he tried to reach for the one more profound.

When he begged her for a second chance
She walked away without a second glance.

-Alexandria Rose Rizik





Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Love is like Drinking Alcohol © 2013





Love is not a choice.
Love is not a curse.
Love is a fair game,
Until the other team takes the ball.
I repeat the same stanza in my head as if my mind is a television set and on constant rewind. I sit in class, Mr. Jay acting as if he is actually grading when in reality I can see the reflection of the solitaire game pulled up on his computer from the whiteboard. I am not really the poetic type but I am being forced to write a poem by the time the bell rings in exactly eight minutes.
I don’t know what to write. My pencil is hovering over the lined paper, hesitation reining over any slight creative impulse my mind might encompass. As I begin to doodle little hearts and flowers on the side of the page, I notice that the third line from the bottom is a much darker blue than the rest. Was it an accident? As all of these things randomly pop up on the surface of my mind, deeper inside my head all I can think about is Brock. Promise me we’ll be friends were the last five words he spoke to me. I nodded at his question that was expressed as a statement because if I talked, the lump in my throat that I was trying to swallow down would explode making the tears that I was holding back pour out. That was a week ago and we haven’t talked since.
Love requests of us to be loyal to thy partner.
Thy? That doesn’t sound right but Shakespeare uses it a lot, doesn’t he? I wonder if Brock will take the usual way up the stairs, the same way he’s taken all year. The way where we run into each other right between room 105 and 107. The way where we stop to talk and kiss and laugh for almost five minutes leaving us with barely thirty seconds to get to our next classes. What if he takes a different way today? He didn’t last week because he was sick- well besides the day we broke up. Maybe he is just as upset as I am. Or maybe I am letting hope get in the way of reality.
Love is like the ocean,
Just when you think it’s calm a big wave will come crashing down on you.
How cliché does that sound? I don’t know what to say. Four minutes remain and I still have a whole stanza left. I know what love is but I don’t know how to describe it. I remember the first time I knew I was in love. Brock and I were at the drive-ins. He brought a twelve pack of Budweiser that he snuck from his dad’s fridge.
“Two tickets for The Town,” he said to the woman at the ticket counter we pulled up to.
She handed him the tickets and we drove to screen five. It was extremely crowded. Brock put the back seats of his truck down so there would be more room for us. He turned the station on the radio to 109.3 just like the lady at the ticket counter told us to. We weren’t watching the movie though. Come on, two teenagers in a drive-in theater with a whole pack of beer to themselves? We kissed and cuddled and drank our happiness away until we reached all of our miseries and then drank that away too. Brock told me all about his parents’ divorce and his dad’s alcohol problem. I listened. I listened as he slurred on about the truth that he would never bring up to me again.
We began to play 21 questions in our tipsy state of mind.
“You first,” he encouraged me.
“Alright,” I don’t even remember what I asked but I remember being so numb that I forgot how to swallow down the last sip of my fourth beer.
When Brock asked me the twenty-first question what has been the happiest moment of your life so far? my buzz was beginning to fade off.
I thought about the question as much as I could for a lightweight who had just consumed four beers. I knew it had only been five months, but I loved Brock. I really did love him. It wasn’t a drunken decision. I had chosen to let him into my life and being with him was when I felt the happiest so that is exactly what I told him.
I notice the first line of my poem, Love is not a choice, and quickly erase it. It is very much a choice.
One minute until the bell rings. My mind is drifting off into memories that make realize I have known what love is all along. Screw this literary “thy”, “thou”, “tis” bullshit. 
Love is a choice.
It comes along with this sort of feeling that is indescribable.
It differs for every animal.
It is not always blissful.
It is sure as hell not always fun.
It isn’t a roller coaster ride.
It isn’t an onion.
It isn’t an ocean.
It is just a part of life.
Just like eating and drinking and breathing.
Just like drinking alcohol, being in love is the best feeling.
But the hangover sucks.
            The week that Brock and I broke up the drive-ins closed down. His father went to rehab. I got into college. He had to move in with his grandmother. My dog had to be put to sleep. Even with all of this change, time does not stop. It will never stop. Life goes on and it keeps moving. Brock said that when we broke up. With life comes changes but we must move on and leave the past where it belongs so that time does not leave us behind.